I don't mean that in a good way. Having anxiety is like hearing a voice inside your head every day and every time you feel good, it likes to remind you of all the things that happened during the day and make you question every thing you did. For example, if you got into an argument with a coworker or friend and you finally resolved it but Anxiety makes you question it and whether everything is really resolved. It plays with your mind, emotions, and mentality. It questions everything you've done and makes you feel miserable and like you're constantly screwing up.
It takes everything out of you to calm your mind and quell the anxiety and sometimes it gets to the point where it's too much. I have discovered in my recovery that when I'm busy with things, I don't have time to think about stuff. But, when I'm not busy, my mind begins to wander and think about past things I've and remind me of my mistakes and I start questioning them and all the "What Ifs occur." It's a vicious cycle and it's like I can never be happy, I struggle day to day to handle my emotions and sometimes it's just too much and I have to shut down for awhile.
Some people don't understand how Anxiety can be so debilitating because they haven't experienced it don't know how it feels. They think it's easy to calm down when it's extremely difficult and it can be so frustrating when someone who has really bad anxiety has to hear that. What I have discovered it being able to surround myself with those who understand, supportive, and are willing to listen when I'm having anxiety. It's much more helpful than being around someone who is constantly telling you the opposite and make you feel worse. Surround yourself with people who build you up and make you feel good about yourself and support you through your struggles.
Anxiety is a terrible and vicious thing and it's a like a evil twin that likes to remind you of everything and make you question everything you've ever done. It causes you to overthink and makes things harder but you can overcome it. You can beat these demons but every day will be a battle and each battle will make you stronger. You'll have bad days and it's okay not be okay some days, we all have bad days but it's important to rise above and show your demons who is in control.
It takes everything out of you to calm your mind and quell the anxiety and sometimes it gets to the point where it's too much. I have discovered in my recovery that when I'm busy with things, I don't have time to think about stuff. But, when I'm not busy, my mind begins to wander and think about past things I've and remind me of my mistakes and I start questioning them and all the "What Ifs occur." It's a vicious cycle and it's like I can never be happy, I struggle day to day to handle my emotions and sometimes it's just too much and I have to shut down for awhile.
Some people don't understand how Anxiety can be so debilitating because they haven't experienced it don't know how it feels. They think it's easy to calm down when it's extremely difficult and it can be so frustrating when someone who has really bad anxiety has to hear that. What I have discovered it being able to surround myself with those who understand, supportive, and are willing to listen when I'm having anxiety. It's much more helpful than being around someone who is constantly telling you the opposite and make you feel worse. Surround yourself with people who build you up and make you feel good about yourself and support you through your struggles.
Anxiety is a terrible and vicious thing and it's a like a evil twin that likes to remind you of everything and make you question everything you've ever done. It causes you to overthink and makes things harder but you can overcome it. You can beat these demons but every day will be a battle and each battle will make you stronger. You'll have bad days and it's okay not be okay some days, we all have bad days but it's important to rise above and show your demons who is in control.